Zarek brought me this photo tonight as I lay across my bed exhausted. My day:

• started with making kids to do lists
• giving them loves
• heading to work to only sit there dwelling on all the things at home that need doing
• worked
• headed home to deal with state phone calls
• get home to ask if schoolwork is done knowing the answer
• try to take a half an hour to just breathe and get my first bites of food in,
• help Zane with the cat box
• get Zarek to empty the clean dishes
• get the kids on a zoom call with their grandma who’s in full isolation
• look at my homework but get distracted by ordering dinner
• get Zarek on his laptop to look at school
• find a mess that needs to be cleaned Zane takes the job with no questions
• sit down with Zarek to help with school to get pissed at the 30+ assignments for the week
• I finally get food served and eat my first meal
• serve the kids seconds
• sit down to help with Zarek and school again to get in a fight over it but get something turned in
• I message my boyfriend this isn’t fair to parents who still work
• I ask Zane and Zarek to hang clothes while I clean the kitchen
• do laundry
• I think 3 shirts got hung
• Zarek takes out the leaking garbage
• Zarek starts asking about where are the Amiibos and I snap that they are in their room that needs to be cleaned

I hear him digging through stuff as I lay on my bed just exhausted.

I looked at the photo he brought me and I cried and the boys and I hugged as we all talk about the stress of school and home life.

I still have a couple hours of school that is due tonight but Zarek brought me a glow stick to brighten me up.

This all starts again tomorrow.